I’m stuck in Minnesota because Minnesota is the land of evil. I’m stuck in Minnesota because some dumb dimwitted boy said that he love me and I’m dumb enough to think that he needed help.

My next Dumb move is trying to handle psychosis on my own. My third Dumb move is trying to get medical help when an ancient society I’d be dead already. The next dumb move is me waking up and having any type of motivation every single day. And I called that amnesia. I have amnesia every single day when I wake up and participate in societies, sick and twisted fucking games.

Do you know how many idiots told me that they love me before in the past that wasn’t the death of me though right??? I don’t know I think truly the death of me was me being an idiot enough to drive halfway across the fucking country because someone’s crying about something scary happened

What’s more idiotic is when something more terrifying happened to me I don’t think I cried to anyone other than like an ambulance coming and they’re like OK cool like you probably can sleep tonight and don’t need to go to a hospital. Perfect thank you

I am sick and tired of everyone’s fucking bullshit. I sit here and I do what you want and then I sit here and then I try and have my own like fucking thoughts and nobody can get on fucking board with like you know what just have her stick to one fucking script.

That’s why everyone my old friends, my old family, my old fucking state my old fucking town every single person got cut the fuck off

If I have to hear one more dimwitted fucking concept or idea from anyone like you guys are literally going wait what if she didn’t watch all of the Netflix series during all of Covid or growing up with everyone else watch TV and had lives and like we created our own fucking concepts of reality based off a fucking TV you morons you know what my concept of TV is it took me two months to realize this TV is idiotic. They are feeding you fucking concepts and you’re like that’s awesome and you know what I’m doing while I’m watching TV getting fat as fuck and you know I fucking hate being unhealthy. Why because I don’t care to actually have to go to the doctor why because it’s a waste of fucking everyone’s time and energy along with vitamins it literally is like a fucking placebo affect half the fucking time.

You know why I love my job both parties get to choose to turn their brains off and just have fucking fun for two seconds for the best of our fucking abilities. That’s why I love my goddamn job. I get to meet 1 million different fucking characters I get to meet all these different people with personalities and most of the time people are respectful, unlike in Minnesota, unlike in Minnesota in Minnesota you guys are how do I say this a little bit rude OK you guys are a little bit rude. You guys don’t see the value of half the fucking shit and I don’t know I don’t know how to like teach that some people get it in other people are like yeah I know let’s ruin this for everyone else too.

I have zero investments and staying in this goddamn fucking state and so that I gotta put it in my head every fucking day cool let me just like you know squirrel Away some fucking money so I can get the fuck out of this goddamn like hell place I don’t even know you know what I think I have better fucking potential and like maybe an opportunity for like an actual life like in other countries like as much as I could put it on the back burner and be like you know what maybe I could stay in America if I just like to hang out on the West Coast forever, you know some days I’m like actually you probably should just say fuck it all you really should just go to another fucking country start over. It would be easier and by the way no matter what if you go to another country they’re looking at you and going yeah no it’s OK. You’re an American. Yeah no seriously it’s OK. You’re an American and I’m like no I get the fucking phrase. I’ve understood the phrase. I’m a little sick of the fucking phrase.

So when do I become selfish? When do I start selling a fucking kidney to like get ahead in life? It is not too cold in Minnesota for whatever I don’t even understand what insanity this is seriously.

I don’t think everyone is on like their top game like let’s you know build the biggest empires either so I’m trying to understand you guys don’t care about friendship family maybe Education and that’s already questionable you guys don’t maybe you care about business businesses OK so what are we doing here? I’m trying to understand it. I look at it from a Tax point of view. I look at it from a societal point of view. I look at it the way that people interact with each other and I’m just highly questioning. what the fuck is going on here.

You know why I’m an asshole is because for years I’ve been singing the fucking praise of the Midwest in the Twin Cities and Minneapolis specifically all the way from the West Coast people would be like oh what is it like? I blit off all the fucking things you can do as a fucking tourist here it’s pointless. It’s absolutely pointless it really it feels so fucking pointless.

Everything feels like a fucking façade here. I learned one thing and then I’m like oh yeah the Connor contradictory thing happens here as well OK and then then I look at like rules and laws and then I’m like OK cool that’s all a fucking shit show in the first place too awesome like I’m just sick of it. I’m just sick of it and then people are rude as fuck.

Explain to me the logic like manners, just disappeared like I feel like I stepped into another universe like I feel like I had amnesia and like was oblivious and maybe this is just like the result of growing up, but like I feel like and I’m not saying that this is like an old customs thing but like what the fuck happened to like just people being polite, nice manners, like I sound like a dickhead because most of the time I wanna chew off everyone else’s heads right now, but like wouldn’t that reduce everyone’s stress just slightly no OK

I miss society. I miss like real life. I miss not having to look at things from 10 points of view and coming back to the same fucking concept. I don’t know I might fuck around and start going to church and see if the same concept supply cause this shit’s funniest as fuck.

I wanna go back to places where like you can ethically sell liquor in Walmart or target I just don’t even understand

I don’t know maybe maybe the problem is I decided to get credit for regular knowledge knowledge you could just find online by going to college I don’t know. Maybe that was the giant sin that I committed. I have a feeling it was more along the lines that I let someone tell me that they love me and I thought that that meant that they needed like a hug or like support for a second no I’m just gullible. I’m gullible but I actually give too many fucks if anyone ever hit me up and like said like there was actually something scary or something bad like no I would give a fuck what I can’t do is keep giving fucks for this goddamn place though

I don’t know who’s in the market for buying an eyeball. I’m joking. I wish I came with a goat. I didn’t come with a goat did I that’s part of the problem. I’m joking actually now we’re into dangerous territory shut the fuck up. This is funny. I don’t even have a beer and I’m laughing like I feel like I crack cracked open a beer and something might be fucking funny for a second.

On that note, maybe I do open a fucking beer you know what who says that I can’t just like sip fucking alcohol while I can send you to twiddle my thumbs and learn fucking science in school or whatever the fuck I’m learning I understand it’s unethical to bring it to school or drive with it. I get the concept I get it. It would make it. Everything seems so much better though, but the problem is like the solution to that is smoking weed and I know too much signs at this point this is a shit show.

Are there any more personalities that you guys would like me to show you? This is stupid. The magic skill is just being a mirror. That’s retarded right be a mirror up to a certain point when you’re lightweight. I got a challenge that idea and the most peaceful and calm way ever yeah I’m sick of this shit.

You’re not stupid though if I could just agree to watch fucking television, sometimes I get a fucking pass television I could do 1 million other things but television not gaining much from it not gaining what I wanna learn from it

I think people can keep offering me fucking candy. Do you want gummy bears? Yeah I want gummy bears. I hope they make me trip and see you like LSD while I’m doing it.